Happy 2014!!! I hope 2013 was good to you and you saw the end in style! I know I did!!
2013 was an interesting year for me. It brought me many lows, but along with them it did bring the highs and happiness!! Live still isn’t perfect, but then that would be boring, and I am excited for what the new year has to bring!! I thought I’d write a little reflection of the past year and my hopes and dreams for the year to come!!
The start of last year was hard. I went through a difficult break up, bringing with it a return to my depression and a determination to not let that illness rule my life once again! The break up made me re-evaluate my thinking, both in terms of relationships and my actual life values. Nothing significant happened after that for a while. I worked my way through the stress of college, practice and dissertation and continued to ponder on what I was going to do upon graduating.
Then in July, I graduated with a first class degree in music. I spent the summer working, practicing, applying for jobs and training in massage. I moved on from my obsession with relationships and finally became settled with the person I am. In August I was offered an interview for what was my dream job, working with children and young adults with autism, which I started in September. Since starting my job, I have qualified as a massage therapist, started my own business and slowly become more confident and contented with everything around me and everything that I do.
At the end of this year, I was still battling with depression, I have come to terms with the fact that it will never truly disappear, it is now merely something that I have learnt to control, but I have realised that I am happier and more settled than I’ve ever been. I celebrated the new year surrounded by some of my closest friends who have helped me through so much in the past year, and I was lucky enough to meet some new people too, hopefully people I will also be able to classify as friends within the upcoming months!
2014 is still young, and it is unclear what it may bring. I have decided not to make any resolutions this year, partially because my one last year fell through within weeks, but also because I don’t feel there is anything that I really need to change about myself. I have goals, yes, but I do not feel I can succeed in these with the pressure that a resolution brings.
So what exciting things do I hope for this year?
1/ A house. At the end of last year, I decided to focus my energies on buying a house. It is something I’ve been planning for a while, but now I have a job and know that Cardiff is where I want to settle, now seems like the right time to go through with it. I am now ready to be living in my own place, to be able to decorate and do what I want in a home I can really call mine. … I can also have a cat!
2/ Relationships. Although I am no longer completely focused on being in a relationship, as I used to be, it is still something that I wish to happen this year. I enjoy being part of something that brings intimacy and comfort, but I am now happy not to push something, and to let whatever will be, be.
3/ Massage. As previously mentioned, I am now fully trained as a holistic therapist and have started my own business … http://www.bevtherapy.com I love my current job but hope to build upon this business so that I have clients and something different to fill my time with.
4/ Family. I have never been overly close with all of my family. We have our moments but often find it difficult to keep in touch when we all live so far apart. My parents and brother live back in Dorset and my sister is currently in Paris, until May at least. My parents separated shortly before christmas, and although this has not always been the easiest idea to comes to terms with, I am hoping that it will bring me closer to my Dad, specifically as he won’t be relying on my Mum to pass messages through. Whilst working on this relationship, I also hope to build closer and stronger relationships with both my siblings. My brother and myself have also been close, specifically when we are face to face, but struggling with communicating when we are not in the same house. With my sister, the relationship can be more difficult. We get on well when we live apart, but struggling in each others company. I hope that this year we can build upon what we have and become closer as we both grow up and mature.
I am sure that 2014 will bring many challenges that I can not currently predict, but I look forward to facing them and seeing myself overcome everything live throughs at me.
I hope 2014 brings you everything you hope for!!!! Happy New Year!!!!